cause love is on the move and revolution burns in you

So my sister just introduced me to this amazing Christian band called war that preformed at her Young Life leader conference this weekend at Rockbridge. They are freakin awesome and she let me burn their CD from her and i have been listening to the same 5 songs on repeat for over an hour...my fav is def freedom is a song, which talks about how the concept of freedom in our world today is very messed up and how the world is "on fire and I've fanned the flame, but its time to stand and fight for rain"...thats a pretty cool metaphor if you ask me...and when I think about it, it describes the state of individual people and the world perfectly. I think I actually may be borderline obsessed with this song, its on repeat right now. its leaves you feeling so optimistic that both you and the world can change for the better. Just because something is wrong and crappy and your messing up right now really doesnt mean it has to be that way forever. its like a wake up call and motivational hope anthem all in one. listen to it..im going to bed soon..I am so tired..prerecruitment stuff tomorrow but i seriously had so much fun today at prerecruitment that im not even dreading it or anything which is awesome..props to justine for that...haha i act like these people will be reding my dumb blog..oh well, if they ever do, they will be happy I mentioned them right? riiiight

"Love can replace the hate. Believe it."

still I'm convinced, wondering what if is the worst thing there is...

This is for the record cause I've been holding back too long...
A summer of abandoned words...
look, if i could turn everything into something you thought was nothing, I'd promise to....
So, disguise yourself to hide the scars
It could be worse you know, so leave it how it is
I hope you know that you were my best friend
Tonight I said goodbye, but I should have said more
But I never thought I'd say I'm sorry
Never thought I'd be the one to bring you down
I know I got crazy, I guess that's just me
So, surprise, Scream your heart out,
Inside you will have doubt,
Today it all seems too strong
If only you would try you'd move on
All along, I’ve been looking for the answers to the questions you never asked
and we never planned on this disaster...
but you have to see that i tried everything; tried so hard to let you know
but now i'm on my last thread pulling away to know i'm real
No more holding onto the memory of what didn't last
or waiting for better words cuz they'll never come.
dry your eyes, It's better, Now it's done...
and this cold air brings such a distance to us, such a painful distance
and I'm still waiting for you to say you hate me now..
But now, I'm counting stars wishing I was okay
Crashing down was my biggest mistake
I never ever, ever meant to hurt you
I only did what I had to..
Hey, I'll take this day by day by day...

Wave now goodbye
its the lesson the you've been given.
you can always move on to better things.

because the seasons change was a conduit...

yea...so summer 08 is drawing to a close and it got me thinkin a little bit about my summer in review. overall, pretty freaking sweet...OC, RI, DC, VA, jamie and catherine visiting, hanging out on knox every night, jersey shore, six flags, getting in shape, baseball, bball summer league, getting paid to get tan, A in my summer class, pretty much getting my life together. I kinda dont want everyone to come back to CP though, as bad as that may sound. I like it not crowded and packed everywhere you go. oh well..another semester (specifically number 5 for me) is about to begin. and you know what that means...well for me anyway it means stress and no time to think about anything. it means 18 credits, class every morning at 8AM, club practice, sorority stuff, ASB trip leader training, my job, continuing to train for this half marathon etcccc. ugh so im getting stressed out just thinking about it..so lets stop talking about this..back to summer...as death cab touches on in their song summer skin, everyone changes a little bit during the summer. change can be good its true but why is it that during summer, people think that their actions wont have any consequences later? im guilty of it too and i dont even know why...its like we want ZERO responsibilities during the summer since we dont have our biggest one which is school...and why is summer love and summer flings such a huge deal? everyone loves to be in love during the summer...why? you tell me because i really dont get the urge to be connected to someone all the time all summer long. it can be nice but its in no way nessacary...but i guess thats just my opinion and i dont think im normal. i feel like most people think of summer as their pretend life and at the end of it, we all have to go back to the chore or living..now that i think of it, the three months of summer is like the weekend of the year...hmm theres a deep thought to end this blog on.....peace out homies :)

just another thing no one else probably ever notices...

does anyone else besides me believe that when you put your itunes/ipod on shuffle, the songs that play come up for a reason? its something i think about probably way too much...like when im working out and kanyes workout plan comes up...you know..give head, stop, breathe, get up, check your weave..haha but yea or when im thinking about someone and one of our songs comes up..and then im like man my ipod wants me to talk to that person..its pretty ridiculous but since i do believe in fate i think it kinda has something to do with that..not like the ipod is plotting to fix my life but when songs come up that make you think about your life, i cant help but think that song was supposed to come up....i mean also my ipod is broken so the screen doesnt work therefore i am forced to keep it on shuffle..so my music selection is always completely random..i feel like all the technology in my life is falling apart..my laptop is a pretty sad sight. keys are missing, the screen wont even stay up, and i have to keep it plugged in at ll times since the battery is dead and im too poor to get a new one right now..ok well i was just killing time til mommy got here but shes here now so im off to go school shopping...peaceeeee

my friends are crazy.

its almost midnight and i have work at six am. I am pretty much convinced that my friends are insane but I love them....Im totally gonna blame HMC and james for getting me started with this but because i was almost crying when i was reading heathers poem about jamie (all true by the way), i knew i had to be join the fun (which by the way heath, i am patiently waiting for the post entitled ode to kelsey????) so yea...lets see where this one goes....