I am so pumped and pleased with my life and its a friday and im not even out and im not even talking to anyone..its so weird lol i wanna be alone right now. but i want attention also. hence the pink song im listening to right now is perfect i love it :) so yeaaa woo weekend! This weekend is regionals for bball and hopefully we win and go to detriot which would be super sweet. There is alot going on in my life right now so ill give you the worldwind summary.
I got sponsered to go the IMPACT leadership conference next weekend so I am really excited to get some useful leadership expiereince in my life...I am applying to be a SARP peer advocate and I really want it! I am freaking out about ASB because our trip leaves in two weeks exactly and i feel like there is a million things to do today but today was our local service trip and i met some tight ass third graders there so that was cute..hmm what else. boys are insane as usual. but friends are awesome :) I love college park and i love life. classes are ok. did bad on my chem test but great on cell bio..you win some you lose some you know...ugh that was a fast summary.
I did feel like writing but there is just too much to say and a pile of laundry that needs to be folded and a shower calling my name...and for that matter, a bed calling my name. latelly i have just wanted to pass out at night lol tiring days i guess...shoutout to jamie and her new tattt! Im so proud and shocked but call me james when you read this..since you didnt call me back tonight sluttt haha love you and goodnight
go away give me a chance to miss you...
say goodbye it will make me wanna kiss you..
Friday, February 27, 2009
Friday, February 13, 2009
Tell me why your so hard to forget...
Dont remind me, I'm not over it yet
Tell me why
I cant seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you...
yea. david archuetas new song. thanks to colb im a tad bit obsessed. also im obsessed with the word tad for some reason. dont know where that came from haha ok so im in an artistic mood so im gonna write what comes do a little bit of a free write you know...
its weird to me to think about life and decide whether i am happy or sad at a particular moment. i am happy because something amazing just happened, like the cute boy who is in a million of my classes ends up working at the ice skating rink and being really good at that which is hot, or i can be mad at the moment, like how i felt earlier when i was standing around wasting my life at plegding in when all i wanted to do was sleep, but no matter what, i always come to the conclusion that life is a big cycle. like thre are generally happy or optimistic people and then those who are..lets say just not. but there is no one on the earth who can be happy 24/7...so when you claim that so and so is the happiest person ever and always cheerful thats a lie. Putting things into perspective for me is the biggest tool that assists me in rationalizing my life, and i would like to thank community service and service learning for that 100%. let me explain. When something goes wrong in my life, its really easy to blame it on things. Compared to alot of my friends lives, i am not as fortunate as them. It is a solid fact that alot of my friends are richer than me, skinnier than me, luckier than me, have two parents, have a boy that they feel like is wroth trusting in their life, etc etc. When you take the time to think about it, you can see in your own life, alot of things are wrong too im sure. When comparing yourself to the people around you, it feels like the world isnt fair. But imagine going to totally different parts of the country or the world, where people dont have college degrees, where racism still exists, where most kids are orphaned or born with AIDS, where hatred and greed and love of money dominates every aspect of life, where people are forced to do things they dont believe in..whatever the case, there are sooo many places that are worse off and so many things that i honestly take for granted. It really and truely is all about perspective, and this is something you cannot get from doing nothing and staying within your comfort zone. you cant learn anything without effort to gain the expireiences.
“You must look within for value, but must look beyond for perspective."
"Everything we see is a perspective, not the truth."
This quote is awesome because it reminds me that every person sees things differently. Thats why ten people can all look at the same picture and when asked to describe it, not one will say the exact same thing. That is insane to me. We all have brains and learn the same things growing up in schools, yet our expieerences and our individual differences cause us to develop these vastly different views, beliefs, and values that give us each numerous truths. and who is to say that one persons truth is better than another persons? ugh I dunno, im getting a tad bit serious here (ahh there i go using that word again lol) oh well I am all written out for now...night
Tell me why
I cant seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you...
yea. david archuetas new song. thanks to colb im a tad bit obsessed. also im obsessed with the word tad for some reason. dont know where that came from haha ok so im in an artistic mood so im gonna write what comes do a little bit of a free write you know...
its weird to me to think about life and decide whether i am happy or sad at a particular moment. i am happy because something amazing just happened, like the cute boy who is in a million of my classes ends up working at the ice skating rink and being really good at that which is hot, or i can be mad at the moment, like how i felt earlier when i was standing around wasting my life at plegding in when all i wanted to do was sleep, but no matter what, i always come to the conclusion that life is a big cycle. like thre are generally happy or optimistic people and then those who are..lets say just not. but there is no one on the earth who can be happy 24/7...so when you claim that so and so is the happiest person ever and always cheerful thats a lie. Putting things into perspective for me is the biggest tool that assists me in rationalizing my life, and i would like to thank community service and service learning for that 100%. let me explain. When something goes wrong in my life, its really easy to blame it on things. Compared to alot of my friends lives, i am not as fortunate as them. It is a solid fact that alot of my friends are richer than me, skinnier than me, luckier than me, have two parents, have a boy that they feel like is wroth trusting in their life, etc etc. When you take the time to think about it, you can see in your own life, alot of things are wrong too im sure. When comparing yourself to the people around you, it feels like the world isnt fair. But imagine going to totally different parts of the country or the world, where people dont have college degrees, where racism still exists, where most kids are orphaned or born with AIDS, where hatred and greed and love of money dominates every aspect of life, where people are forced to do things they dont believe in..whatever the case, there are sooo many places that are worse off and so many things that i honestly take for granted. It really and truely is all about perspective, and this is something you cannot get from doing nothing and staying within your comfort zone. you cant learn anything without effort to gain the expireiences.
“You must look within for value, but must look beyond for perspective."
"Everything we see is a perspective, not the truth."
This quote is awesome because it reminds me that every person sees things differently. Thats why ten people can all look at the same picture and when asked to describe it, not one will say the exact same thing. That is insane to me. We all have brains and learn the same things growing up in schools, yet our expieerences and our individual differences cause us to develop these vastly different views, beliefs, and values that give us each numerous truths. and who is to say that one persons truth is better than another persons? ugh I dunno, im getting a tad bit serious here (ahh there i go using that word again lol) oh well I am all written out for now...night
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
Tomorrow it may change...
oh man, its Feb, meaning alot of things but most importantly Deis birthday is today and of course we are doing her shots on Vday to celebrate so this weekend should be good. Recruitment just finished which is what I have been immersed in for the last two weeks. Everything went wonderfully and I do have to say that I am borerline obsessed with a few new girls. So I guess you can say all the yelling and bitchiness and skit practices and getting sick and awkward conversations were worth it? haha but seriously the past two weeks may have been crazy but it reminded me of alot fo reasons why I joined sigkap in the first place, and being around all the sisters really helped me remember some things it seems I have forgotten, so I am thankful for that. Also, very thankful for being able to recruit all the time because at this time last year, I was going through a really hard time and was not even in a right state to recruit. I was talking to tori about this but its like even though we complain endlessly about recruitment and how much we hate it, if you are healthy enough and happy enough that that is your biggest complaint, you are soooo lucky. And I see that :)
Besides sorority stuff, basketball started last week and I feel like I have thousands of random things to do all the time. Same old story I guess, but the difference is I actually feel like my life is under control. Besides being up til 4:30AM last night finishing my chem lab, things are good. I LOVE my new backpack cuz I can pack changes of clothes and anything I might need for the day which is good because I usually do not have breaks to go chill and switch books or get a gym outfit or fix my makeup..some may look at me and say NERD ALERT. but I really dont care haha This is the first free second I have had in a week...I am not even kidding. I cant wait to go to sleep and get caught up on everything I have been pushing to the side. I still have to finish Dei's shotbook but dont worry, its going to be awesome. lol Okay, just to wrap up, I have some new boys on my radar. and I am a little excited. Speaking on of my radar, I love Britney's new single If you seek Amy. Like LOVE it. And speaking of celebritys, I HATE chris brown for hitting Rihanna. I really might delete all of his music off my ipod. WTF yooooo? ugh okay, I really could go on pointlessly forever but I guess I have nothing important to say so I should try to do something productive like my philosophy of education homework (arent you jealous of me right now?) peace and love
......but not today
Besides sorority stuff, basketball started last week and I feel like I have thousands of random things to do all the time. Same old story I guess, but the difference is I actually feel like my life is under control. Besides being up til 4:30AM last night finishing my chem lab, things are good. I LOVE my new backpack cuz I can pack changes of clothes and anything I might need for the day which is good because I usually do not have breaks to go chill and switch books or get a gym outfit or fix my makeup..some may look at me and say NERD ALERT. but I really dont care haha This is the first free second I have had in a week...I am not even kidding. I cant wait to go to sleep and get caught up on everything I have been pushing to the side. I still have to finish Dei's shotbook but dont worry, its going to be awesome. lol Okay, just to wrap up, I have some new boys on my radar. and I am a little excited. Speaking on of my radar, I love Britney's new single If you seek Amy. Like LOVE it. And speaking of celebritys, I HATE chris brown for hitting Rihanna. I really might delete all of his music off my ipod. WTF yooooo? ugh okay, I really could go on pointlessly forever but I guess I have nothing important to say so I should try to do something productive like my philosophy of education homework (arent you jealous of me right now?) peace and love
......but not today
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