Surfing on a Rocket..

so I really feel like I am living back in a dorm again. like i wrote a blog last night and my internet freaked out and erased it all. and my apt is 90ish degrees since our air is not being turned on until may 15th. i cannot believe it lol i am basically sitting in my a pile of my own sweat when i am home so yea...trying to stay away from there. the semester is starting to wind down which is great but an ever increasing amount of stress is looming. and this weather makes me not want to do ANYTHING at all. i really just want to go to the beach. lol but yes, things are going ok. My main concern now is getting my grades up and getting my summer figured out. I am staying here, taking two classes, working alot, and hopefully doing lots of other stuff on the side. So i found out i got the position of SARPP peer educator and AWB trip leader for next yr but I am waiting to hear back about head guard...but besides the heat and stress, everything is good. This weekened was awesome...it was MD day and 30 kids from Gaston NC came all the way up here for it. Amazing times..i got to take them around campus and everything which took alot of energy but we got liquid nitrogen ice cream, made putty, saw the fistulaated cow, got regular ice cream, swam in the fountian, sumo wrestled, went in the wind tunnel, etc, etc. It was sweet. I want to go back dwon there around final time to help out and visit but I dont know if that will work out..lots to figure out. also, greek week was so fun also just to throw that in there. now i feel like its time to buckle down and work. oh school how i love you...

i know what you wanna say...
i know it, but cant help feeling differently..
I loved you, i shoulda said it
but tell me just what has that ever meant?

just get back up when it knocks you down...

So not in a good mood but dont know if I would classify it as a bad one...classes are making me mad, people are making me mad, girls and boys in my life are making me mad...ugh I love the new keri hilson song though...knock you down...some of my fav lyrics go like this...

Say you gotta put the good with the bad, happy and the sad
So will you bring a better future than I had in the past oh
Cause, I don’t wanna make the same mistakes I did
I don’t wanna fall back on my face again
Whoaa, whoaaa I’ll admit it, I was scared to answer love's call
Whoaa, whoaaa and if it hits better make it worth the fall

Yea, boys suck. So do girls. grr.

I dont feel like writing a blog that makes sense today..Why do people think they can walk all over everyone int he entire world? I hate negative people, that is the one thing I try to not surround myself with because they get me down. When all I want to do is get them up :( Our PHA speaker tonight was about confronting idiots in your life to help them become better people but what if that is not enough? What if people never listen? I cannot wait to get out of CP this weekend and go home. I need home ASAP. I'll be dying easter eggs and stuff :)

Oh yea, someone started talking about their dad in class and I started crying..what is wrong with me? :( ugh heres some lyrics that remind me of him...

If you lop awake
In the mirror of a bad dream
And for a fractition of a second
You can't remember where you are
Just open your window
And follow your memory upstream
To the meadow in the mountain
Where we counted every falling star...

As I said after dated last week, I hate everyone haha mal..but seriously, I hate having this feeling...I am going to go work out...peaceee

dont see it coming when it happens,
but when it happens, your gonna feel it lemme tell you. now..

An active mind cannot exist inside an inactive body.

I seem to always blog about my weekends or random things I do, never about my normal life of family and friends but I guess I can do what I want, since it is my blog and all? So yea, this weekend was sooo tiring but amazing also. I got three free tshirts out of this weekend (yes, count them) so that is always the measure of how successful my days are. So this weekend was pretty much a success. On Saturday, I ran in the Jog for Justice 5K (free shirt #1) and I finished in 26 minutes flat. I had to run by myself :( but it was stil really good exercise, a decent time, and def for a good cause. Then, the rest of my day was consumed by Anchorsplash (tshirt #2), which is a charity swimming competition for another soro on campus. Sychonized swimming was entertaining and we actually won two of the races so that was good. Went to bed early.

Got up early on Sunday in order to lead Terp Service Weekend. Although we had some issues with the vans and gas and such, we got the YMCA in silver spring finally. I had to drive a 12 passenger van eneven though I was sure I left those days behind in Gaston haha. But we organized an entire shed and the rest of our team painted and I met some really cool people so that was good. Plus, we were back by like 1:30 when most of the hung over campus was just getting up, so we all felt very accomplished. Then since it was so beautiful out, I went to this frats bball tournament where I played for a hot second (Tshirt#3) then I went tanning (so relaxing!) and for a run around the lake...made me want summer even more than I already do...Junioritis anyone? YESSSS but finally last night I went to ASB reunion/celebration and got to talk about my trip which I love to do. The slideshow was also amazing and very insprining to see what all 15 of our trips did combined. I realized that the University of Maryland made a difference all over the world in a week. And that is sweet.

The rest of my night was filled with my lab report and here I am writing this today on Monday instead of working on my other lab report. ugh, thats life. In the paper today, it talked about how the semester is winding down and all I could think was no its nottttt. lol But I am going home next weekend for Easter and I am excited to see my mom, Kris, and Colb :) woo ok productivity time? oh ps I want a HUGE nap <3>

The life of a man consists not in seeing visions and dreaming dreams, but in active charity and willing service...