And if you ever said you miss me, then dont say you never lied...

brand new is making my life make sense. haha i am so strange when i get in these lyricey moods. So I had my philosophy class today (before they cancelled class for the snow YAY) and all i have been doing is complaining about how much I am going to hate that class all day. Now, im starting to think i may be wrong. i know its not my forte, but i love song lyrics and poems and do use them to apply to my daily life and maybe the ideas i can read about and gain from this class will be no different. just a thought. I love to think about the big picture of life; I guess i just dont agree that it should be a real thing to devote your whole life to and major in and so on. And slow moving classes where you donot learn things that are tangible and right and wrong make me mad. Its not that i cant handle open endedness or im not a crticial thinker or any of that BS. Its more that i think its a waste of time to be learning how people think. Think for yourself fools. I dont want to be paying money for a philosophy class when sciences classes are so much more concrete and fast paced and real and practical for me. I dont know, its just classes like this are such BS and i dont think it should be required to take to be able to be a teacher. ok enough of that.

Moving on, snow day today was productive. Dei fell no surprise haha :) she doesnt even read this anymore so its cool. Also, we lost to BC which is another aspect of my life i want to vent about. First of all, pissed at the team. After an embarrassing loss to Duke by 40 freakin points, we let this one slide outta our grasp after leading all game. And to top it all off, our fans are so negative. I consider myself a loyal fan but even i am fusterated..so all the people who dont really care, its just really esy to trash talk our team right now. and i feel like i can trash talk them a little but its different when these ppl who dont even know whats up trash talk..haha im such a hypocrite but arent we all?

Next topic of crapiness is the money situation in my life. So I am getting NAILED with $475EK dues, $150 for ASB, and bout $400 for books this semester (outragous, i blame CHEM) all in the span of two weeks. WTF. Where am i supposed to come up with $1000. Thank the good lord that some of my finicial aide is built in for this sort of crap, but like seriously. Money is worryinig me....

Sorority stuff is in full swing and despite what I thought, I have been very happy while at the house. I am in the skit this semester and I know its only day two of the semester but I feel so much better about this smester in general. Like I am truely going to work on not stressing out which is the hardest thing for me. Its not like im gonna freak and cry but each day i have to make this exact list and rush to get everything done on it and feel like i cant take some relax time to talk to my friends and i just have to be work work work or ill fall behind. its hard to understand unless your in my head but yea i tried. lol

i dont even want to get into how much ASB is stressing me out. I have so much more to do with it. i dont even wanna start listing it....

So thats it. The semester is in full swing minus this snow. so now ill leave you with another brand new lyric to drift off to sleep with...peace y'all

Well I love you so much
But do me a favor baby, don’t reply
Because I can dish it out
But I cant take it..

If all else fails,

tomorrow is the first day of Spring 09 semester...this weekend was great, an awesome start to this semester. I am dreading the craziness that tomorrow will bring...its wierd though, i just got done with my winter class (which i got an A in YAY!) and now, two days later, its time to really start stuff up again. were watching tool academy, which is the most hilarious new show that is pretty much charm school for guys. The guys are such Aholes its ridiculous, but i guess all guys have a jerk side to them sometimes. I am so tired, I am passing out after this show is over. I got like four hours of sleep last night haha so last week on Mondayh, me jesse dei and julie went to philly which was so fun cuz we took tons of pictures and saw the liberty bell and the LOVE sign and just were tourists and it was a nice girls day trip. Then, Tuesday was Inaguration. Alot of my friends went but I just watched it from the couch, which was def good enough for me. It is so strange to think that the same mall i have seen abandoned a million times was covered with 1.5+ million people. Yay Obama :) On Wednesday, I had class and then went back to Whitetail with areya, christine and her rooommate who was really cool. Areya made me go down alot of hard hills, which i handled ok until i wiped out and did a million soumersalts and of course happened to be under the lift so all these boys were like damnnnn girl you ok down there? and everyone stopped and looked and yea. Then we saw a prostitute and her buyer on a pre sex date at dennys?? i think ha Thursday, Friday, and Sat were just filled with my final and sigkap prerecruitment drama and practice. Im in skit this yr and my part is great. One line and a slow mo run haha oh my sororityyyyy...and now were at Sunday. i dont know why I always blog on sunday, guess cuz its like when i gather myself for the coming week and close up on the previous one. blah ok time to sleep love youuuuu

you can look up at the sky,
because its the same one that shines above you and I...

everythings a piece of everyone...

winter break is such a weird twlight zone time period, and i really like it...and i can tell you why. its because i haave stuff to do every day but its not ovverwhelming and its a routine. like i am beginning to reconize everyone is in my class and everyone who goes to the gym between 12-3 and everyone who swims in the pool from 3-close. luckily today im not working..I just had my second midterm in my winter class, it wentn pretty well. so many people in that class get on my nerves though. I guess its cuz i see them everyday but its so annoying. But there are two very special members of the class who i have crushes on. they both have been in my classes before but its only just now that i have time to obsess about them. I am particularly interested in one but hes really quiet so i dont know how to talk to him. jody told me i have to talk to him by next friday our last day, she makes me feel like im in 5th grade. lol i realized that i have a serious problem in that i get about a zillion crushes on guys in a normal day. then i just obsess aand imagine what it would be like if we were together then im on the next one and i forget about the old ones...its strange but i like it. it helps me pass the time, but i rarely have a crush that lasts ovver a month. haha well i have wasted the majority of this day which is awesome. i am dreading next week when real stuff starts happening. i like the slow moving pace of my life right now because I have time to think and reflect and do stuff that prob..well off to ledos with scott and the wife. love you

I think we'd still be travelling together...through all kinds of weather...<3

so this is the new year....

and i gotta go against death cab here; I do feel really different. haha theres a ton going on in my life but if your important you already know..the point is that I am happy...so my news years resolutions are 2/5 of the way done and its only Jan. 8th. lol I am back at school taking a winter class and working and having alot of fun, so thats that. I do have alot to write about but for some reason I dont feel like blogging all that much. Im about to go to class then workout then finish making this cake for johns birthday today. then maybe to the library and whereever else. winter break is awesome I have already decided. A in my class, here I comeeeeee

By the way, the rest of break after christmas was amazing..jamie came home and i wish i had more time with her but she is right; it never feels like I havent seen her in as long as I have. But also, i got to see some very important people to me that I havent seen in months and everything went perfectly :). Since I am in such a good mood, here are some happy lyrics..have a great January day for me

I'm alive
I dont need a witness to know that I survived
I'm not looking for forgiveness
Yea I just need light
I'll be lying in the dark as I search for the resolution....